Sunday, April 24, 2016

Trivial

You're going to fight.

It'll be over an off handed comment you made about a dish towel.
It'll be over a disagreement on how you should spend your time in the wilderness.
It'll be over her gambling.
It'll be over how you drive.
It'll be over money. Or the kids. Or the in laws.

And you'll tear into each other. You'll dredge up things to hurt each other. Or you just feel it's time to discuss these matters. And they'll last for hours. Your heart will be ripped out more than once. And you'll cry. And sometimes you will go to bed angry. Sometimes you won't say I love you to each other. And sometimes, just sometimes, you'll leave. Or she'll leave. And either one will hurt you more than you'll admit to yourself. And you'll wonder if it's worth it.

She'll get sick. And you'll have to stay home from your weekly card game to take care of her. You'll have to stay home from work. You won't get to just leave whenever. You'll have to watch her stupid girly shows and you'll have to cook for her. And get medicine for her. And clean up messes if she doesn't make it to the bathroom in time. You'll have to hold her hair. You may even have to wash it for her. You won't get any sleep. Sometimes you'll have to skip work. Sometimes you'll go with no rest.

You won't get a moment alone. She'll be in your home. Your life won't be just yours anymore. It'll be yours together. Every decision, every purchase, every single act will be yours together. No longer can you think for just one. You have to think of how this will affect the both of you.

Going out will not be the same. You won't be able to just talk to a random woman anymore. At least not the same way you did before. You won't be able to spend as many late nights with your buddies. You will have to make more time for her. You'll lose your individuality. Your friends will think you're ignoring them. You may even lose a few of them.

This is forever. This is what you have to look forward to every day. This, imprisoning, jailing relationship. You'll be tied down. This. Is. Forever.

If you can read this. If you can see all of these possibilities and scoff. If you think this is stupid and how every little negative I've listed is trivial. That no matter what if this happens, it won't change how you feel about her...then you're in love. And that's what it's all about. It won't make the terrible things go away. It just makes them...

Trivial.

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